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Remembering Self

If you knew of a very sad, scared, lonely, or angry part of you, what would you give it to heal it? So very often we look outward for sympathy, for assistance, for support, for gifts of love. But we forgot to look inward and give what we want to ourselves.

Recently, I was very ill. While lying in bed, I took the time to go inward and seek the root-cause of my illness and bring healing to it. In my inner journey, I met a very sad part of me deep inside, where both time and I had forgotten her. There she was suddenly, front and center, both a visual image and a knowing. I knew from reading the Abraham-Hicks books that if whenever I feel a powerful negative emotion that means there is something really important that I want. I noticed how sad this part of me was, so I asked her what she wanted to feel better. She just looked at me, confused, as if she didn't know what to do with that question. No one had ever asked her before what she wanted. She started wailing because she realized how long it had been since she asked for anything for herself, and she had forgotten what she wanted. She couldn't even remember who she was anymore, and that upset her even more.

Can you imagine how my heart just ached to see this part of me so miserable? I was basking in the glory of Light every day, and there she was, confused, not knowing who she was.

I gently guided her back to her right to ask for what she wants, for her right to know who she really is. I invited her to consider she might be coming from the same Source I do. She spent a long time just gazing into what seemed like a forever-space for me. It was a field of void. Carolyn Myss called this field "Potentiality." I didn't know what this part of me was thinking; I just waited by her side patiently. She turned to me slowly, still with a sad smile, saying that she would explore the time-space continuum and find what she was looking for. She finally remembered that she was free as the wind, and that was good enough to start her on her own journey.

I cried lots and lots. I never knew that a part of me felt so lost. I knew I was being shown how to find my lost self and bring her back to Light in a new way. This was a process of reuniting the parts to the whole. As the interaction came to a close, I felt warm feelings radiating out of my chest, throughout my torso and back. I felt movement in the shape of eternity (the sideways figure 8) on my 3rd eye, my shoulders, my hips and my ankles, weaving in and out, connecting my left side and right side. It was as if I was being weaved or re-knitted.

I think this incredible spiritual experience taught me that a simple gesture of self-love and kindness can powerfully move a person towards wholeness and healing.

I invite you to consider reaching inward, listening deeply, and giving to yourself that which you seek from the outside world. Then, be ready for the magic to unfold from within you, helping you remember who You really are!

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