Does It Get Any Better Than This? (Part 2)

In my last newsletter, I wrote about my personal experience with the fear of feeling happier than I was already feeling. (Click here to read that article.)

Here's what unfolded today, about a month since I wrote the article. The timing couldn't have been more perfect!

As I was enjoying my day, adoring my dog and contemplating the meaning of life, feeling free and peaceful, I heard myself thinking, "This is the free-est I can be. I will never be free-er than this." I was keenly aware of a sudden sadness within.

I sat with that information for a bit, choosing to just "be" with that part of me that spoke up. Curious, I did a TAT (Tapas Acupressure Technique) on that thought as I sat with it. I also allowed myself to think that the opposite is possible, "This is not the free-est I can be, and I can be free-er than this."

Immediately, I encountered a confused part of myself, "Who will I be if I am freer? I will lose myself. I will not know what to do. I have lost myself before and I don't want to lose me again. It hurt too much."

With great compassion, I validated and assured myself, "That all did happened, true. And, I am OK now. I now know how to find myself when I am lost again. I will listen to my inner guidance and my emotions to direct me home again. I was lost before because I put other's feelings and opinions before mine and ignored my own inner guidance and my emotions. I am so grateful for my Higher Self and Angels for guiding me, and also for Abraham for teaching me about the function of my emotions, and now I know how to use my emotional guidance system to find my way back to Me, and to know Me! It has been a wonderful journey Home!"

New insights and clarity flooded in like a gush of water: When I am freer, I am happier. When I am happier, I feel better. When I feel better, I am even more myself, which means I am less lost!

There was a huge grin of relief from inside of me, relieved that more freedom and more happiness don't mean more risk of losing myself. Instead, it actually means more connection to my Source, to my greater Self. I can embody more of who I AM.

Ahhh, Sweet Freedom, thank you for knocking at my door and inviting me out to play! I can feel that now I have the permission to have more freedom and be even more joyous than I have been before. I love this wonderfully expansive and liberating feeling!

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